One of the most transformative things that happened to me...
Whatever you do, make it an offering to me — the food you eat, the sacrifices you make, the help you give, even your suffering.
— Bhagavad Gita
One of the most transformative things that happened to me was to be reminded of this
by my aunt, a few years ago... I don't know if she ever read the Gita, as she spoke of it in different terms, telling me about the power of asking.
She said that as long as I kept trying to do things by myself, I'd be frustrated by my human limitations. That if I could let go of the notion that "I can do this alone", things would become much easier.
She told me there was nothing I could not, or should not ask. That I should ask out loud
— alone in my house — for my deepest longings, and that things would come very quickly after that, in a matter of days.
Ask For What You Want
This came as a shock. I was a person who easily gave, but had difficulty in accepting to receive. I regularly said, "Oh, it's too much, really, you shouldn't have..." when someone gave me a present — I understand that many of us are in this situation.
When she said this to me, I was going through a difficult phase. I was at the end of my emotional, psychological and material means and couldn't find a solution to the situation
I was in. So I decided to give it a try, however scary the notion of asking for something (even to an empty room) was.
When she left, I burned an incense stick and sat down to contemplate. I knew what it was that I was going to ask for, but it took me a while to gather my courage. And finally I uttered the words, trying to speak as loudly as I could.
When my ears heard the sound of my own voice, I broke down, awash in humiliation.
I wept. And as I sobbed, I asked for my fears and difficulties to be removed.
It was a gut-wrenching experience, in which I faced feelings of being "not good enough" that I'd carried from my childhood into my adult years, and let them go. As I sat there
crying and speaking to whoever was out there, I opened myself : I let go of my walls, my self-protection for fear of being hurt.
I thought, "I'm doing this because I couldn't do it alone. So from now on, I shall entrust myself to You, come what may. Do what You want with me, put me where You want — I give up, I have no strength left."
... and four days later, a miracle happened. The solution to my biggest problem. And with that a sense of wonder, of "is it really